My #1 Fan and Worst Enemy
Isn't it strange how sometimes something or someone can equally make us feel on top of the world and at the bottom pit of hell? The high of sugar then regretful stomach ache after. The worst part is when this something is yourself. Your mind. The one true thing that you feel you can never escape. I've been pondering lately about how high and low my mind truly wanders. Within minutes sometimes... I've always known that I suffer from anxiety which at times turned into depression, I've read about it explored different options and coping systems, even began to feel free from it in a way up until a couple weeks ago. I felt that I understood the "bad" stuff that my mind goes through and I can recognize when it's going to happen and to some point get a little control on it. But what is baffling to me is how absolutely great I can make myself feel. It's so contradictory! And yet possibly what has saved me all these years? Took me out of my dark spot.. But I me...